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Bored With Life

So, I'm kind of bored with my life.  I guess.  I mean, I'm single... 34, soon to be 35... No kids, no significant other.  I've been on THOUSANDS of first dates from dating sites... 99 percent of them just ghost.  No reason why, no feedback... Just stop responding out of the blue.  It's hard to keep people interested I guess.  Or get people to care about you.  That's REALLY hard to do.

I mean heck, even Miss Daylight/Miss Plantation eventually lost interest.  You only started reading my blog when a hurricane was on its way.  The minute that was over... The hits stopped.

I guess the thing about you is... In my mind you're already married to that guy that you were dating the last time I looked at your social media.  Which was why I stopped.  I really don't wan to know.  If you're also single, then I'd totally want to know.  I mean, it's the same for my college girlfriend.  I stopped wanting to know the minute she met her current husband.  I guess I don't get that... Who wants to know?  I don't want to know someone I had feelings for and wanted but they didn't want me back is all gaga with some other guy.

I mean, I wonder a LOT about you... Things like your living situation, did you buy a house?  Are you still renting?

I wonder about your cats... Are they still healthy and meowing?  Or did anything happen to them?

Are you still getting promoted like crazy?  In my mind you're like... making 100k a year plus... And you're some super world traveler.  Who knows.  I mean, also in my mind you're married to some guy who is a multiple billionaire and you have a mansion that you live in down in South Florida.

Who knows what is true though.  I'd LOVE to know... But... You know... I don't want to know.

Anyways, so I'm continuing my Starbucks streak.  I'll go to the gym after this.  I'm at a Starbucks where basically there's only like 2 other people besides me.

My newest favorite thing to do is sit in front of someone and opening up my trading account... Then let my screen face back towards that person with the "grand total" of the account zoomed in.

Then I make some kind of noise or scoot my chair so they look over and see the screen.  I did this last night and the girl's eyes went wide.  Apparently she thought it was a lot of money.  To me it's not a lot anymore... You get used to it.  It just becomes the norm.  I'm considering flipping houses, or buying property to rent out to people.  I'm not sure yet.  For now it just sits invested in accounts.

Like I said, I guess I'm just bored though.  You gotta find things to do when you're bored!

I'm thinking of maybe seeing if I can find a community theater or something to join.  I mean... I don't know, I'm just bored.  Hah.

I think I'm sort of "waiting".  Like, I know, eventually I want to move somewhere new.  My biggest goal in life has always been to meet that special someone... Start a family... Do that whole marriage thing.

Hasn't happened yet.  Everyone else I know is all married.  Annnnnd then there's me.

Even sitting here in a Starbucks there's no one.

I keep swiping on dating sites... No luck there either.

Who knows.  I wish I knew where to go to meet someone special.  Like where would be the most likely place to meet a single girl my age who would also be interested in me romantically.

Karaoke, quizzo... Maybe open mics or something?  Not sure.  I suppose I could start volunteering somewhere.  I don't know.

I was going to do meetup.com stuff.  Maybe I should do that.

Who knows.  What does a single 34 year old do with one's life.

I think I'm just going to wait things out.  Right now I'm in the process of throwing stuff out.  I throw one thing out a week around the house.  I've been doing that for a while now.  I'm actually starting to notice things getting lighter.  Eventually, I'll put the house up for sale, and then maybe move out west or something.  Who knows.  Maybe I'll go back to school and get some little small one bedroom apartment somewhere.  Not really sure.  I honestly have no clue what I'm doing with my life.  Everyone else seems to have it figured out, married, kids... House... Etc. etc.

And then there's me.  I'm just bored.  I have no clue what I want to do.

I guess for now I just do work at Starbucks and then go to the gym every night.

And do this blog thing.  Although, today I had no hits, so... Maybe even posting blogs is pointless since no one really reads them I guess.  Eh who knows.