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Future Plans

Future plans are a funny thing.  Because yours, or my own, future plans... Are someone else's current plans.  There is probably someone else exactly where you currently want to be.

Today I was thinking about my writing session last night.  And all my other writing sessions.  I'm closing in on the end of this book.  And I was thinking about all the spots I've written at.  And when I finally write the very last sentence in the last page.  I'll then move on to a new book.  And then figure out what I'm going to do with this current book when it's done.

One thought I had a while back was to print it out.  Wrap it up nice and neat all Pinterest like.  And mail it to the girl that inspired it.  Maybe she would be the only one to ever read it.  Or maybe she'd just toss it in the trash.  And hesitate after she tossed it before she finally closed the lid.

But, I have since decided against that.

Mostly because I don't know her mailing address.

Instead I've decided that something will happen with it.  I'll connect up with just the right person as soon as I finish it and things will go from there.  I'm sure of it.

And then my plan, or my dream rather, is to somehow make millions from it, but not because I really want millions of dollars more because I want to create.  I want to use that money to create more.  And use that money from that to create even more.  I just want to be in hollywood.  I just want to write and make movies and music.  That's my dream, it always has been...

So from the money I make from anything really I'll work on my books and music.

I'm trying to picture myself as a writer... A published author.  I feel like ideally?  I live in LA.  Or rather I have a house in LA.  But I also have a place here in PA.  Mainline.  Probably Wayne.  I write mostly in bars and coffeeshops around the Mainline area.  But sometimes I fly back to LA.  I live on both coasts.  Close to my roots.  Philly and LA... Representing.

Maybe go up to NYC sometimes.  Maybe go where inspiration takes me.

My upcoming books, one of them has me in San Fran, another has me down in Miami.  So, I might visit those areas to get inspiration.  Another is over in Paris.

The one I'm on now is North Jersey.  I might visit a few more times before I finish the book just to kind of get another feel of the plot and the characters.  I might walk through the characters actions.  I might visit the exact locations where the characters go.  I don't know.

I feel like LA is just a good place to be as an author, or a creative type.  At least, a place to have a house.  And maybe I'll live in a house like my grandparents did.  My grandparents had a house high up on  mountain with a fantastic view, it's just relaxing.  Today I stumbled upon two videos on YouTube that is basically my grandparents house...

So the initial video was a short film called "Those Wrecked by Success".  That video was then used by someone and they combined Gasoline by Halsey with the scenes from Those Wrecked by Success.  I love both videos.  I love the song.  The house from the video reminds me of my grandparents houses in California.  It reminds me of what I'd love to get back to.

And then I just love Gasoline.  It's kind of dark... But, you know, it's strange there's something fascinating to me about a dark minded girl, I think there always has been.  About someone that's got something going on in her head... That she's thinking about things.  I guess it just catches my attention.  If everything is roses and sunshine.... I don't know, it just doesn't do it for me.  But if you've got lyrics like Gasoline... in your head?

I can't stay away.  I want to know more about you.

There's a certain allure.

Anyways here's the short film: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GbNAzNAr27c

And here's the Halsey music video for the song Gasoline: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xZ-m55K3FhQ

I don't think that's the official music video for Gasoline.  I'm going to look it up now.  But it does seem to work well.

I just know that, sometimes when I'm out writing and I listen to songs like Gasoline and I'm in the moment.  It kind of feels like I've completely removed myself from who I am in real life and I've put myself inside the story.  I guess it helps that usually I've had a couple drinks.

But when I think about my future and where I'm going?  I feel like I want to create worlds.  I want to create fiction.  I want to encounter more people with fascinating minds and let their minds inspire my own.  Let the contents of their minds spill out onto the page as I type away in a bar somewhere, probably on the Mainline in some old pub.  That old Philadelphia feel.  And I grab the thoughts coming at me in my direction and push them outwards into the story.

There's one line in the song that I really like, "I think there's a flaw in my code".  I feel like, that's what most attracts me.  That what most pulls me into someone.  That feeling.  It's fascinating.  It's mysterious.  I can't look away.  I can't turn my thoughts away.  I want to know more.

I think we're all fascinated and absolutely attracted to that beautiful girl, with a slightly disturbed mind.  It pulls you in and you can't escape.

She's smart.  She's a fighter.  She's beautiful.  But that mind of hers?  You'd give anything to crack the code and figure out what's going on in that mind of hers.

There are so many characters in so many books that fit that description.  And we're fascinated and captivated by them.