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Connections

I feel like I'm blogging a ton lately.  I don't know what it is, but I just feel compelled to write more here.  For one, I'm trying not to use Facebook as much.  This is better.  I can write here and no one can comment.  Facebook posts are okay once in a while but I want to Facebook post sparingly.

I feel like this is a better space to rant and rave and complain and talk shit because basically very few people if anyone read this.  So I can basically say whatever I want here and people I know in real life from Facebook don't ask me about this Facebook post or that Facebook post.

So anytime I feel annoyed, or I want to say what's on my mind, or pretty much anything.  Where I used to Facebook post it.  And before that tweet it.  Now I just post it here.  Again, pretty much no one I know knows this even exists.

I guess my other reason I've been posting a lot is because I just feel like I have the most connection to this blog than anything else.  I talk with all these girls on dating sites.  Or I go out to events and things and the talk is very disconnected.  It's like... When I put things down here, there's a real tangible feeling of connection.

But when I sit on a first date, I know she doesn't care about what I'm telling her.  I know that we'll probably never see each other again.  Plus it has to be all "fake" and nice and prim and proper.

On here it can be whatever.  It's the same as when I used to talk to my mom.  Basically we could talk about WHATEVER.  Because it was my mom.  So she would just say whatever she wanted to me and I would just say whatever I wanted to her.

No filters.

So that's what this is.  No filters.  I say whatever.  Facebook people are all like... well you have to filter that.  Just because then you see people in real life and they are all judging you about what you posted on Facebook and ask you questions about it.

But here it's a connection much like what I had with my mom where it was just like... I can say whatever.

Because let's be honest.  That's how people REALLY are.  People aren't all prim and proper at their core.  They are honest and raw.  If people are being all nice and prim and proper it means they are being fake.  Sometimes people get annoyed or angry or upset.  That's real life.  That's being human.  Sometimes people talk shit.  It's just what people do.  If someone is always nice and roses and sunshine, it means they are full of shit.

Real people go down in flames sometimes.  They get heated.  Then they're okay.  That's what it's like to be human.  You have emotions.

So anyways this is my no filter space.  If people read it... That's up to them.  I write a lot.  I might write even more. I might slow it down and only do a blog here or there.  Right now I'm going about a blog a day.  Some days I miss a day.  But some days I write 5 blogs.  I feel like a blog a day is probably best.

Anyways today I wanted to work on music, but I did chores instead.  I'll probably work on music in a bit for a little while and then resume chores.  I have to go to the store at some point too.

For some reason I had tons of chores to do.  That's okay.  I'm feeling accomplished because of all the items I crossed off my to-do list today.

So, it's not that I want to "tell" people what I'm doing.  But, sometimes it feels good just to write it down somewhere.  It's about having a connection to something authentic or real.  Somewhere that you can just open your mind and say whatever as opposed to keeping it all under wraps and what not.  So that's what's been on my mind today.  And since I can't just go talk to my mom for an hour about whatever and she talk to me...

I write it all here instead.