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Dear 1 and 1 blog reader

You... yea... you... Miss Maye.

Ok... this is so hard to say... but... here goes...

I'm so super super SUPER sorry about any anxiety or stress that I caused you in the past few months... and... it was just hard for me... to have you out of my life because I fell so hard and so quick for you.  You're just funny and cute and smart and witty and talented and creative and seriously you are a catch!  You are just... awesome... and any guy on the planet would be lucky to have you.  Soooo very very very lucky.

you ignite a flame that makes me feel alive like no one else I've ever met.  You've changed my whole freakin world and view on life... I mean... you don't know it... but... thank you... I mean I can't thank you enough for so many things that you've changed in me for the better...  I've never had anyone in my whole life have such a positive influence on me.

There's just so much that you've changed in my life.  And... it's positive... you are just an amazing person.  And I MISS the heck out of you more than anything in the world.  I think about you... like ALLLLL THE TIME... but... I know it's time to move on... it's just that...

Every time I see a hit from 1 and 1 on google analytics it gives me some small glimmer of hope... it makes me think that something could possibly happen... that maybe things could change and you might talk to me again or want to see me again or want to go do karaoke with me one time...

...and...

I need to realize...

...that's not going to happen... is it?

I know I just need to move on... but I can't if I still think you care... if I still think you miss me... to me in my head if you are still reading my blog and I'm still seeing hits on google analytics from you then it means that you have at least  some interest.  And I can't move on...

So... as difficult as it is to ask this...

I don't want to see anymore hits from 1 and 1... I mean, I do.... but... It's making me still want you... if I know you read my stuff... because then I think you might still want me...

so...

So please... I'm begging you.  Just stop reading my blog... at least stop checking it at work... just....

I think part of what happened, I think I get now is that you are reading to make sure I'm not writing about you and that I'm moving on... but to me I think you are reading because you miss me... I guess maybe I finally figured out that it was confusion... and misunderstanding on my part as to why you were reading what I was writing...

So I don't know... is that right?

Because if I think you are reading my blog because you miss me then I miss you more... And if you don't miss me... then... I don't want to miss you anymore. 🙁

 

I'm glad that I met you and you've been such a positive influence in my life and ...

I seriously just... I love you.  there... It's true.  I do... but...

please? I'm asking you to just... help me move on... so no more 1 and 1 visits... anymore deal? oh gosh... that's so hard for me to say.  🙁

Goodbye... and I hope you continue to influence so many other people so positively the way you have me...

you're a good soul... through and through... you are such a good person.  I'll always miss you but...

I need to let you go.  I just need to. okay?

Please.

So... goodbye.