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So lately I've had a fairly busy social calendar.  It's kind of my life lately.  My brother and sister and peers are all like kids and husbands/wives and home stuff.  And I'm just the single bachelor.  Oh well, it is what it is.  I guess maybe some day I'll get to where they are.

Right now I just go out a lot and continue to figure out ways to get rid of responsibilities in my life.  Or deal with them in ways that allow me to be social.  Last night I did something new with the lawn to free up more time in my evenings.  So basically, I'd LOVE to get a lawn service, but until the trust money or estate money comes in, that will have to wait.  Same with a new fridge and washer and dryer.  It's kind of crazy, there's MILLIONS of dollars... and we can't even get like, just the first 50k.  I guess it's just like an all or nothing deal.

It seems crazy to me that that's how the attorneys and the banks handle it, but whatever.

So the money is where it is until everything is finished I guess.  Who knows how long that will be.  Once that is sorted I'll be able to be even more social single bachelor 30 something guy.

I think I've decided after 2 years to just sell the house too.  Then get like a condo somewhere.  That way I don't have to worry about yard work and home repairs and such, and I can be more single and social and just have fun with my life and not have a lot of cares in the world.

Again, I'd LOVE to meet a girl and get married and settle down and have kids, but I don't want to be with someone unless we have mutual feelings for one another.  Unless we say "I love you" and mean it.  Until that day comes... I don't want to live with someone or get married to someone that we don't say mutual "I love you" to each other and we actually do mean it.  That's pretty much all I'm looking for.  Mutual "I love you".

But right now I'm figuring out more ways to be single and less responsibilities, or manage my responsibilities better.

So last night I mowed my lawn after dark.  It worked fine.  I use a push mower that doesn't use gas.  It's human powered.  That means it makes very little noise.  So, I can do that at night.  I have a headlamp that I used to use at camp and what not.  SO I just wear that and mow the lawn after dark.  That way I can go do things after work or on weekends and don't have to worry about making time to mow the lawn.  I can take care of it at 10pm at night maybe just do a half hour mow a couple nights a week.  So, like tonight I'm going to see a movie after work.  It's a film premier official screening of one of the guys that was in the play I saw last week.  That's at 7.  I'll have no time to go home after work, and I won't be home until after dark.

No problem.  I can still get out there tonight before I go to sleep and mow some more after dark.  So, that responsibility is now managed better.  I guess if it rains I can't.  But, as long as it's not raining, I can even just mow a small patch of lawn.

Yeah, I know it's kind of weird.  But until I can use the money I receive to hire a lawn service, or I sell the house and get a condo... I'll be mowing my own lawn.

There aren't a TON of responsibilities really right now in my life.  I mean the cats... But they are cats.  Thankfully my mom wasn't a dog person.

I'm not a dog person.  That's one of the reasons I have terrible luck dating... So many girls that have dogs.  All I want is a girl with a cat, actually that's not true entirely, but girls with dogs are almost always allergic to cats.  So they can't ever come hang out at my place because they are allergic to the cats.  But then they always want some guy that has a dog too.  They always like that big and tall and rough and tough dog owner type of guy.  That's just not me.  Just like there's so many girls that love sports and insist on finding a boy to go with them to sports games or watch sports games on TV.  I know there are girls out there that don't watch sports.  So, just have to keep meeting new people until I meet that one girl that likes cats and doesn't like sorts.

I mean okay yes, fine, if I end up falling in love with a girl that has a dog and watches sports... Fine.  I'm not going to stop myself from falling in love.  In fact, that's how love works.  When you cross paths with someone that catches your heart... You have no choice.  Love is not free will.  You can't NOT fall.  You just get captured into their lovegame, like Lady Gaga style.

So, really, once I cross paths with that one girl that captures my heart she could be EVERYTHING I don't care for at all.

She could be a super sports fanatic, completely uncreative, dog lover, that listens to only country music (I don't much care for country music either) and drives a gas guzzling truck (I like eco friendly gas sipper cars, or anything green).

I mean heck she could be covered head to toe in tats... I don't mind one or two tasteful and important tattoos like something to remind you of someone special or something that's important to you.  Like if you are a music teacher and you have a music note.  That's cool.

But I've never really dug the whole sleeve thing or up and down your legs and arms and hands and feet and all over your face and ears and eyeballs.

Again, I'm willing to give anyone a chance.  I just feel like if we don't have some crucial things in common... It might just fall apart.  Like let's say that she wanted to ALWAYS watch sports on the weekends.  And she ALWAYS wanted me to go with her.  I'd go, but I just wouldn't be into it.  I wouldn't be happy.  I'd be just like... looking at my watch all the time or bring a book to read.  And then we'd start to bicker and fight.

Or let's say she always puts the country station on in her truck.  I'd always have my iphone in listening to my music.... And I'd always make comments about how much gas she's wasting and how terrible for the environment it is.

But... if I fall in love.  I'd just sit there all gaga and googly eyed and just be like... okay with whatever she wanted or said because I'm in love.

That happened with the church girl.  I was like... I'll never go to church... And then there I was in a church with her.  Sitting next to her.  In the church service.  Which still boggles my mind.  I can't believe how much power she had over me and the ability to make me do what she made me do.  It was like a she said "jump" and I said "how high?" type of scenario.

But that's how love works.  I could end up meeting a girl that has all of that.  And fall for her.  And end up married to her.  Because love has no rhyme or reason and you can't pick the person you fall for.

I guess ideally I like the nerdy cat girls that like pop rock/ alt rock music.

But again, if someone captures my heart, and I fall, she could be anyone with any interest.  And it wouldn't matter.  When you fall in love you have no choice.  It just happens.

But for now, I go out to fun events.  I'm going to hit up this thing called the Can Jam at SlyFox in September.  And I'm going to go on a brewery bike ride on the SRT.  The SRT is the schuylkill river trail.  Just keep going out and doing things.  Fill up my weekends and week nights with fun things and events.

Tonight is the movie screening, and tomorrow is yoga, Wednesday I have another date.  Thursday is open still, maybe work on music and books.  Friday I'm hitting up a show up at Musikfest up in Bethlehem.  Going to see a singer songwriter perform.

Single and social.  While all my peers are getting married and making babies.  I'm drinking beer and handing out my number saying "call me maybe?".

It's just what it is.  Some day I'll stumble upon love hopefully.  But for now at 33... I just fill up my social calendar and go out to lots of events and drink beer and be merry and have fun and meet new people.

Because anyone that ended up getting married to someone, couldn't have told you the day before they met the love of their life, they were going to meet the love of their life.  It was just one day they were single, and the next, they were intertwined and inseparable.  That's just how it goes.  Some people it just takes a long time.  Others get it early on.  It's just the luck of the draw.  Just have to keep going out to things and going on dates and just not really put much thought into it.

All I care is that I fall for her (like I did for church girl).  I really don't care anymore what kind of person she is.  If I start to feel all gushy and mushy in my heart for her.  I'll let it happen.  So far I have nothing on the radar.  Not even someone I have a crush on or anything.  But like I said... Anyone that is currently married will tell you, the day before they met the love of their life, they were exactly in my shoes... Wondering if they were ever going to meet someone.  And then.... Suddenly... There the person was, almost as if they came out of nowhere and blindsided them.  Because that's how love works.  It blindsides you when you least expect it.