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Reason 10 (Updated again)

So... reason 10.  I thought of reason 10 today.  But... I then immediately had a thought...

This whole reason thing would be cute... If she were my girlfriend.  But she's not.  She's someone else's girlfriend.  So instead, it's annoying.  It's dumb.  It's downright creepy.  Etc. etc.

Or creep town as Kara says.

So... It's not my job to give her reasons why she's awesome.  That's his job.  So if she wants more reasons from me... And she finds herself single again some day?  I've got thousands of reasons.  I'll give her reasons until end of time.

But since she's not single.  I'm going to stop at 9.

Well... Anyways so that's it for reasons.  If she's ever in a different place in life and he's no longer in her life... I'll pick up where I left off and then some.

But since she's got a boyfriend... That's his job.  It's his job now to write her a reason every day.  Every single day as long as they are together as to why he thinks she's awesome and he wants to be with her.

And the day that I meet whoever comes into my life that I end up dating... Every single day I'll give her a reason why I want to be with her and no one else on this planet.

Because if you're with someone and you can't give them a million reasons why you want to be with them.  You can't give them a reason EVERY day... A reason through every season...

Maybe you shouldn't be with that person?  I think that's true for all couples.  You shouldn't be fighting with them.  You shouldn't be complaining to them.  Giving them reasons why you don't like them.  Because if you give them enough reasons one of these days you'll give them reason to leave.  You should just be giving them reasons why they rock your world.

Because there are BILLIONS of people on this planet.  So look at that one person... Look at the person you are with... and think to yourself.  I could be with ANYONE else... But I'm with THIS person.  Why?

There should be lots of reasons!

You should have a MILLION reasons.  You should have a BILLION reasons.

So, I gave her 9.  He can give her the other 999,991 reasons out of that million, or 999,999,991 out of that billion.

Reason 10 though?  And the rest of them?  I'll just keep to myself.  If she ever wants to know... She can always find out some day if she ever gets curious.  She knows I'll always be a yes for her.  I could be married to someone else... Have kids and be living with someone else... And she could just call and I'd still be a yes.  It's just how it goes sometimes.

We all have that one person that no matter what has the key.  They can just come back from the past and walk right back in.

So... There ya go.  Reason 10, 11, 12... all through up to 100.  I guess the world will never know.  But that's how it goes sometimes.

I guess this post sounds kind of mean... But, it's mostly that I'm more angry at myself that I didn't have what it took to get Kara and he did.  Or I'm just feeling jealous.  And I don't want to feel jealous.  I feel like something is wrong if I'm feeling jelous.  I'm not jealous about D or Sandy and the people they are with.  SO if I'm not Jealous about D or Sandy and I'm even Facebook friends with both of them... Why am I still jealous about Kara?  I don't like that I am.  But that's just how life is sometimes I guess.

So, anyways, I'm going to stop the reasons.  Just because I think he should pick up where I left off.  If he doesn't want to.  Okay.  That's up to him.  But if he wants to... He can pick up the reasons.

Anyways... So I just think it's a better to save my reasons for someone when I start dating whoever I meet in the future one day.  So Kara got 9 and she can have those 9.  But I just think it's better/probably less creepy to save 100 reasons for someone that can return the 100 reasons back to me.

So there won't be 100 reasons for Kara.  The might be 100 reasons some day.  For some girl.  But for now... the 100 reasons, in blog posts, will just have to wait.