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More Jealousy Alley

So, it's 3:30am and I'm awake in the lodge.

I'm trying to just... Process things...

I went back to where I was staying... a cabin called The "Staff Lounge"...  Which has beds, and some of the beds have sleeping bags  and pillows.  Basically it's supposed to be where the counselors go if they need a night that can't be spent in their cabin.  Like, if the had something to drink and need to sleep it off.

It's often used notoriously for couples to... Spend time together.

That scenaro happened last night.  I was okay with it.  I mean, last night was different.  It's a big enough cabin and the couple last night stayed on the entirely other side and I basically came in late on purpose.  Just went to sleep.  Whatever.  They had also closed off their area so they weren't visible.

I've had worse situations with roommates in college.  Honestly, wasn't a big deal...

Tonight?

I'm just, not even sure how I feel right now.  Honestly?  I'm not like, upset, I think?  I just feel so... numb or something.  I mean, I guess I'll probably laugh at this a year from now...  I don't know.

I'm trying not to make it a big deal.  I'm trying to just let it all go and know that I'll be back home in my own bed in a few days....

For the duration of my stay I've been staying in this staff lounge cabin.  Some people come and go.  Some have used the showers or whatever... Some have stayed because they had to get up super early to go travel and make airport pickups for campers.

Tonight I decided to wait until 2am.

I figured okay, maybe some people would go back for a little and use one of the beds, but they would all be asleep by the time I got back.

When I got back, there were two people sleeping in the center of the cabin on the floor... They had taken two mattresses and put them on the floor to make a larger bed...  I could only see shapes on the dark but didn't shine a light or really look over for more than a split second.

I was a little taken aback by it but thought, okay... At least they are asleep.  Fine.  Whatever.  I don't even want to know.

I used my flashlight without turning on the cabin light.... I made my way to my bed quietly...

When I got to my bed...

There was nothing on it.

Nothing.  Not a thing.  No sheets, pillows, sleeping bag... All gone.

I turned around and shined my light on the very edge and immediately recognized the sheet and sleeping bag.

Yeah.

So, I'm not sleeping right now.

Let's just assume that these two people just stumbled in slightly intoxicated, somehow didn't realize that my stuff was my stuff... Even though there's a lot of other items that are personal items right there next to the bed... So I'm not sure how you can mistake it.

I think they were just pretty drunk and didn't realize it.

Now, let's assume they just went to sleep.  I honestly really know that's not the case here... But I don't know for sure so I'm not going to assume it.

I also have a really good idea as to who it is... But, since I didn't look, I just left the cabin and walked...

I can't say 100 percent.

I've been sitting here for a little bit and thinking and even if I knew who it was 100 percent, I wouldn't say who it was.

The thing is, like I said in the previous post, I'm going in a few days.  My take on it is... Yes, I'm a little weirded out by it, and maybe I'm upset... I don't know.

But these two people have to work here the rest of the summer.  It's not a story that they should have to deal with people talking about all summer behind their backs and what not...  It would just make for a terrible rest of the summer.  Whatever, it happened... It's not a good situation.  So, I just want to deal with it and let it stay in the past.  There's no reason to make a big production about it.

My plan is to just stay up until the morning, get a trash bag... Go get my stuff... Wash it all... And then go back to sleep for a little while.

I guess it's weird knowing that there's the possibility that something happened between two people on my personal stuff...

I don't know right now.  I'm just trying to decide that I don't want to be upset about it.  I don't want it to be a big deal.

I guess I just feel a little violated or something because it's my personal stuff.  I feel like it was pretty obvious that someone was living/sleeping there.  And even if someone is pretty drunk, they should know not to just touch someone else's stuff without any kind of permission.

I just don't know how to feel right now.  I'm just sitting, and waiting for sunrise.  I'm sure come AM the people sleeping there will get up and leave, and then I'll just go down, get my stuff and wash it.  And that will be that.