Settling In And Some Random Thoughts On Thoughts
I’ll start with something I heard tonight that made me laugh… I was leaving Guitar Center and some dad was talking to his kids and wife right out front… all I heard of the convo was…
“If I had a nickel for every time you asked me if I had a nickel and I didn’t have one…”
The wife then finished his sentence with “… You’d be living in a paradox.”
Then the kid was just like…
“What’s a Paradox?”
And the dad hesitated… thought for a moment and then said…
“It’s when you are REALLY sick because you need a pair of doctors to help cure you!”
That’s one witty dad. The kid saw through it and said “Daaaaaaaaad… you just made that up!”
The convo faded as I was walking away and they started to talk about nickels and change again.
Speaking of change…
So I’ve now been in my apartment nearly a week. There’s this weird sensation when I first move to a new place that I still feel visitor esk even after I am all moved in. It usually still takes a week or so to get to the point where I really feel like I live in that space. Does anyone else ever have this sensation? The last time I really moved was from college to home and OF COURSE I wanted to go back like immediately. So I don’t have that whole wanting to go back immediately feeling. Sorry mom! I’m not gonna lie, I love living on my own. But I’m VERY thankful to have been able to stay at home for so long and get all my ducks in a row, so to speak. It was mutual though because I did lots of stuff for her and around the house. Although, somehow I’m not longer getting free rent, but still stopping by to do things for my mom. Yesterday I stopped by to pick up some random things and had to carry heavy stuff to the basement like giant bags of cat litter. But I didn’t mind. That’s what I’ve been working out for! Haha, yep.
So, here I am all moved in.
I’m about at that point when I feel like it’s actually my place. It’s pretty cool. Things are starting to settle into where they feel like they should be. I actually sat down to write this Blog about 3 hours ago and then fell asleep! I’m up now for a tiny little bit and typing it and then it’s back to sleep for me. Moving to a new place made things pretty hectic and also made it so that I had a million and a half things to do and def didn’t have time in the day to do it all. And it’s made me really tired at the end of the day. I think now that things are settling down and I’ve got my apartment all setup (well, aside from the fact that I have bare walls still and can’t figure out if I want posters, OR if I want to try and do something more grown up as in something of the framed sort) I can really get back to doing my normal stuff that I do each night after work and on the weekends.
I’m actually glad that I didn’t end up purchasing a house and that I decided to go with an apartment instead. It’s definitely a much better transitional step. Houses are great and I could probably have even more of a feeling of being lived in since I would own it, but on the other hand they require so much more time and money! I know I’d be spending WAY more time dealing with house things than I would doing creative things that I love way more.
So I think I’m just going to ramble a little more and then hit the hay. Along the theme of feeling like the place you live is now lived in and getting into the groove of things I’ve started to figure out where and when to do what things. Previously when I lived at home I’d spend lots of time at my desk but here the couch seems more natural as a work area. It’s much more relaxing and I can spread things out in front of me on the coffee table. I really don’t know why but it just feels perfect as a workspace for music and creativeness while the desk feels much more right for doing business things.
Today I worked on some more of this animation thing and tomorrow I’ll work on recording (I keep finding things to fix on my new song!). I have a grand plan for my website and my music and the whole animation thing to really start to take things in a bigger direction. All shall be revealed soon enough. I think tomorrow I’m going to also upload my first track to Tunecore and see what happens. I just have so many things in queue that I can’t wait to get setup or made or created or whatever! But at the same time I still have some more work to do around here in the mundane life realm. That sorta thing takes priority. Anywho now that the craziness of relocating is starting to calm down I can get back on track with all my big plans.
I’m just really glad I decided to do this and now feel like it’s really MY place. Every time I drive back from hanging out somewhere or work or being at home I get a little gush of happiness. And especially when I get my keys out to unlock my door and step into my place. Each time I feel more and more like it’s right and just feels like it really is my place and where I’m supposed to be at this point in time in my life.
It kind of reminds me of the times when I’ve been in a relationship with someone I really felt all gushy about and I would wake up each morning and the first thought was about that other person and then last thought before I went to sleep each night would also be about that person… I’d like that feeling more the next day than the previous day. And it just made me feel all happy. Hmmm… yea.
Anyone else know that feeling or what I’m talking about? Hmmm… I miss that feeling.
I guess I’m in a relationship with my apartment since I think about it in a gushy way now?
… but I think we are in relationships with lots of things we get all warm and fuzzy over… maybe it’s… our jobs, our friends our favorite shoes. And we just get a feeling of joy every time we think about it. Hmmm... ok well I’m just starting to talk nonsense now aren’t I?!!? So I think that signals that it’s time for bed.
What’s your last thought before you go to sleep at night and your first thought when you wake in the morning?
Well, anywho, it’s definitely time for me to sleep…
Good night everyone!
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