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Three Day Weekend

This upcoming week is spring break for the students where I work.

So, while they gave the students a significantly longer break, we get 1 extra day.  It's really basically the day that everyone else at the normal corporate jobs received on Presidents Day.  We had to work that day... So it's just kind of like having that day off, but pushed back.

Anyways, I'll take it!

A day off is a day off.  So, I plan to use my three day weekend not to travel somewhere, or go out and about.. I'm just going to stay in and get things done.  I need to vacuum the house, that's one thing I need to do.  I am going to go out and go to the gym, and the store...  I have the bottle of red wine that I opened last night, a Malbec... I had a glass from it last night... So I want to go shopping and find something that will go well with it tonight.

My latest thing has been to open a bottle of wine on Friday night, and then enjoy it Friday, Saturday, and Sunday evenings.  I usually get enough to last the weekend from a bottle.  I like to alternate between red and white wine.  Then sometime in the week, like Wednesday nights I'll have a beer with my dinner.  I do the pick your own six pack thing at Wegmans.  Then Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday are off nights.

I've been trying to stay in more.  I feel like going out shouldn't be something that I do ALL the time.  Like, I should just kind of save that for more special occasions.  Just kind of stay in more, and then when I do go out somewhere for something, it will be more of something enjoyable instead of all this going out almost every night type of thing I had been doing.

The whole point of going out anyways was to try and end up like all my peers and find that special someone and end up married one day like they all are.  But, it wasn't leading anywhere.

The truth is, I may never end up finding someone.  Some people just don't.  Not everyone has that happy ending of meeting someone and getting married.  Some people just end up staying single for their lives.

SO, it's possible that could happen.  In which case I would have wasted all that money going out just to find myself broke.

I'd rather have a nice home, and for example have plenty of money to go buy like a new couch, and fridge and washer and dryer and redo the floor and make repairs...

Basically spend all the money I WOULD have on someone else... To make for a nice comfy living room where I can crack open a beer mid week, or a open a nice bottle of wine every Friday night and enjoy sipping that wine while I make dinner and watch a movie or the next episode in my favorite TV show...

It's a better use of my money and efforts than trying to find someone who may or may not even be out there.

You know?

And in the mean time I'll go to the gym and yoga and what not.

So my plan today for day one of the three day weekend is to just clean, practice music, go to the gym and the store then come home and work on some music and make dinner and then have some more of this bottle of red wine.

Then tomorrow, I'll probably do more of the same.

I might meet a dating site match for coffee either tomorrow or Monday... Not sure.  There's a couple that I've been talking to for a while now.  One is like going on two or three months.  It's weird because she flat out told me she's been trying to see where things go with this other dude but she wants to keep talking to me... I'm not sure how I feel about that.  It feels kind of like I'm some kind of safety net back burner guy.

One of my friends said there is no other guy and she's trying to make me either feel like "quantities are limited, act now!" type of deal, where I will then try to chase her more to win her... OR, she wants to talk more without meeting and is trying to make up excuses.  I guess... But my thing is just say that?

I don't know.  Who knows.  It's okay though.  Anymore I still chat online but without any kind of expectation that it might actually even lead anywhere.

I just keep responding until something happens.  If we do make it to a first date... I just make sure to say at the end that I'm interested and I'd love to go on more dates... And leave it up to her.

I mean, I'll be the back burner guy.  You never know... maybe years later she'll change her mind and then we'll start talking again.

My thing is, I'm single... SO until there's a girl out there that decides to give me a chance... I'm open to dating any girl.

So, even if I talk to a girl on and off and she dates guys in between, and then if none of those guys work in the long run... I'm still here single.

At least that's what my one friend said as a way to look at it.  That just because someone on a dating site or anywhere else you met that person decides not to go with you, doesn't me that 5 years later you won't start talking again and then at those different places in life that you're at now, you find out what didn't work 5 years before now works...

I guess that makes sense.  Who knows, I might find out at 40 that someone I met when I was 20 is actually the person I end up with.  But we had to become different people over those 20 years to become a match.

That makes sense, as we're all always changing.