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Anti V-Day

I'm just in a bad mood this weekend... Obviously it's Valentine's Day.

I'm just imaging how everyone else is spending it... By everyone else I'm thinking of someone in particular.  She's probably spending it with that guy that she's with.

There's probably flowers and whatever.  Who knows.  He probably flew her to paris for the weekend.

Honestly, I know nothing about him.  All I know is he bought her Chipotle Mexican Grill like when they first started dating.  Who knows, he's probably some big time dude and all accomplished.  He probably pulls at least 100k if not 200k a year at some big time job down in Miami/Fort Lauderdale.  That's probably why she likes him.

They're probably engaged at this point.  Who knows.  He's lucky as hell though, he definitely snagged the most amazing woman I've ever met so far in my lifetime.

Lucky guy.

Oh well.  Anyways, I don't know, I went on a date like a couple weeks ago, but she just stopped responding out of the blue.

I don't know, dating just is tough.  Most of the online dating these days is like, they take out a checklist and if you don't fit all their items on the list, they call it quits.

And then everywhere I go in person, everyone is already married even.

I'm wondering if maybe some people just never meet someone.  Maybe there's just a few of us that just end up alone.

I mean... I guess it's possible.

Oh well.

So let's see, while everyone is off on vacation in Paris for the weekend with the love of their lives, or at the very least, eating Chipotle Mexican Grill...

I sat at home tonight and just had Five Guys.  I haven't had Five Guys in a while.  I watched some Netflix and had a beer.  I'll probably get to sleep early tonight.  Tomorrow I'm covering this camp fair for my friend that owns a summer camp.  Tuesday night I'm going to World Cafe Live to see my fiend Jesse play some tunes.

So tomorrow night and Tuesday night will keep me busy and my mind occupied instead of picturing that girl off in Paris munching on Chipotle Mexican Grill being all lovey dovey with Mr. 6 figure a year salary.

It's weird though because every now and then I get this like craving to read all her stuff online.  I don't though.  Like I WANT to... SO BAD.  You have no idea.  I mean heck, I want to talk to her... SOOOO bad.

But then I'm just like no.  What's the point?  Why would I want to torture myself knowing that she's all head over in love with this dude.  That she's got some perfect fairytale happy ending love story down in Florida.

I don't want to do that to myself.

Anyways, so the best I can do is just keep my mind and myself busy.  I'd love to know if one day I could have a fairytale happy ending too...

I don't know, maybe I will, maybe I won't.  Who knows... I guess I just have to take the days as they come and if someone comes into my life, then she comes into my life.  If she doesn't.  Then she doesn't.

But that's how it goes.  You can't make love happen.  Some people find love, and some people don't.

And it's very possible that maybe I don't find love.

For now, I just have to keep myself occupied, especially around Valentine's Day, when I'm just feeling all blah.