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Tonight I was out at this bar, a friend invited me to this drag queen karaoke thing.  Basically, it's karaoke, just hosted by drag queens.

It was interesting.

Anyways, so I'm waiting in line to use the rest room and I start talking to this girl.  I don't know.  I can't explain it for the life of me.  I don't know her name.  I didn't get her information at all.  I have no clue.  She went her way, I went mine.

All I know about her was that, she just, caught my attention.  She wore scrubs.  I'm pretty sure she was a nurse.  She seemed like she was there with a couple of her friends for some drinks and karaoke.

But, I don't know.... She just... Caught me off guard.

Obviously, I have no way of knowing even who she was, or anything like that... But, it just gave me a glimpse into how "it" must happen.

That must be the way that the whole love, into a relationship, into marriage thing happens.  It's like that.  You're just waiting in line to use the bathroom and the only thing you care about is using the bathroom...

And then all of a sudden... There's this... Person that you... You can't figure out what is happening.

I probably should have figured out a way to find out her number... But it just wasn't the right moment or timing.  We all basically were getting ready to leave right after I talked to her.  And then additionally she was just gone too like as we were leaving.  It got chaotic... and who knows, maybe that's how it was supposed to go.  Maybe I'm not supposed to ever know anything further about her than she was at karaoke when I was, and she was wearing scrubs so she's a nurse.

But the point of it all is... That's how people end up married.  You're just trying to do something else, like using the bathroom... and then there's this person out of nowhere that... Is just, there, like... they are just... The one that you want to know more about, to talk to more.  That you just are drawn to.

To be honest?  I'm nowhere near getting married.  Tonight was fun.  Karaoke was cool... Although I didn't actually sing myself.  It was just fun.

But it made me realize... I want to live in an apartment near a main street.  I want to go out, have fun, drink with people, then stumble back to my apartment.  I'm not interested in that whole getting married and settling down thing right now.

I mean, okay.... I WAS.... and maybe I still am... But I'm missing the most obviously important part of it all... Someone to settle down with!  I already have a house... But... It's just... having this house isn't doing me any good.

What would do me good is as soon as I'm allowed to sell it, I sell the house, and then I move somewhere with people that are my own age and I go out to local places and then just enjoy myself.

And then when I find myself in a place like I was tonight... Instead of being like... "Oh, I have to drive 45 minutes so I can't really... Blah blah blah..."

Instead I can just have a place down the street and I can have that one more drink, and I can say stay longer, and I can find out her number or something or talk to her more.

I mean, I'm not saying I'm some party hardy type of person.  but, I don't know... I'm single.  Right now.  As I type this.  I'm TOTALLY 100 percent single.  And I don't see myself getting into a relationship any time soon, or getting married any time soon.

So, I'm going to just go out and have fun and enjoy myself.  I'm going to plan to sell this house when I pass the mark where I can sell it... and then, I'll get an apartment somewhere trendy and cool and just go out and have fun and enjoy my singleness until the day that something like tonight happens... and then goes further, like to the point where we actually end up exchanging numbers, and seeing one another, and then end up maybe even dating, and then in a relationship.... and who knows...

But tonight was a wake up call for sure that, sparks can definitely happen in the most random of places... Such as waiting in line to use the bathroom at a bar while drag queens are hosting karaoke.

And in the mean time... I'll just embrace my single ness and enjoy myself and go out and not worry about if or when I might actually meet someone, and it might actually turn into anything romantic that might actually make it all the way to marriage.

I'm sure marriage is probably great.  But at this point... Gotta learn to crawl before you can sprint.  I'm not even at a crawl with anyone.  I'm not even walking with anyone.  The best I've got is a short conversation in the bathroom line at the bar with scrubs wearing girl at drag queen karaoke.

And if that's as much as I've got... Then that's as much as I've got.  And maybe I cross paths with her again, and maybe I don't... and maybe there's someone else I cross paths with.  Just have to wait and see.