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Maineward Bound

I was SUPPOSED to leave around 1 or 2 this afternoon.  That didn't happen.

See, what had happened was... My plan was the following:

Since I had to work on Saturday, I was going to try and get as much done during the free time I did have... So it was going to be something like...

Friday afternoon/night (I got off work at 1pm for my usual 1pm summer Fridays): Do lots of stuff.

Saturday night: Do more lots of stuff.

Sunday morning: Finish lots of stuff...

Leave for Maine!

Here's what REALLY happened...

Friday afternoon and night: Did some stuff, fell asleep after I made dinner for several hours, woke up got ready for bed and went back to sleep.

Saturday night: Did as much stuff as I could but then realized I had WAY more stuff to do than previously planned as I kept finding the more I knocked off the task list the more I added in new tasks!

Sunday morning: I got up around 10... I wanted to wake up around 8... But I was just so sleepy.  I started tackling the list... I got LOTS of stuff done... Unfortunately it just wasn't enough to leave in time. So I'm still doing things... Just getting closer and closer to finishing the list.

I'll wake up bright and early tomorrow and head on my way.

I'll be heading up towards Hartford and then after staying with a friend I'll be heading the rest of the way to Maine.

My one friend is going to cat and house sit for me.

AND... I just spoke with my next-door neighbor.  He's going to do one lawn cut for me... In exchange for a bottle of wine.

Actually he insisted that I don't have to do that... and I was like... NO WAY dude!  I'm giving you a bottle of wine for cutting my lawn while I'm away.

He's got this big riding mower so it's not THAT big of a deal for him...  His response was..

"Well, I won't turn down wine."

He's awesome.

Anyways... He also is going to be a in a play downtown that he also wrote.  He invited me to come see that opening night.  I'm like... I'll be there.  Me and him go WAY back.  I still remember the first time I met him when he moved in next to me.

I mean all my neighbors are cool, but for some reason me and him just bonded really well.  I think it's because I'm artsy musical type and he's artsy musical type too.

He used to work in Hollywood... worked for Disney and what not... Now he just sticks closer to Philly and NYC.  He's tight with a few pretty famous people... Raven... you know, from That's Soo Raven, or The View.  He knows The Roots too.

Anyways... I'm excited to see him in this play, I've never seen him in a play before!  And he wrote it as well... So that's pretty neat.  I mean I'm excited to go to Maine too.  I'm also excited to go to Nightscape again at Longwood Gardens.  That will be fun...

I'm trying to put more things in my life that excite me.  I keep getting down on myself about the whole being single thing...

But okay really it's not JUST that... It's that... I don't know, I mean I know.  Never mind.  I guess I just miss people that used to be in my life but aren't anymore.  Obviously my mom, miss her a lot... I can't believe it's been the better part of half a year now... and her best bud Eddie Sickles, he's been gone since 2013... I miss chatting with him.

And of course, I still think about... That one girl.  You know, THAT girl... that one girl.  I still think about her a lot.  I just do.  She's just still on my mind... I just carry her around in my thoughts.  It's strange too sometimes... She'll pop into my mind all of a sudden and it will be like... I can literally feel the tangible feeling of missing her.  Of remembering back to when I knew her.

So yeah.  I guess just have to kind of take life as it comes... Sometimes it doesn't go according to plan.  It goes according to another plan.  And that plan is taking me up to Maine yet again tomorrow.

First it's taking me to Wawa to get gas and visit the ATM and grab a Wawa hoagie for dinner.  But THEN it's taking me up to Maine.  And that plan is taking me to my next-door neighbor's show in July.  And it's taking me to Nightscape at Longwood Gardens in August.  And it's taking me...

Who knows.

If I could control the plan... I'd be able to talk to that girl.  I'd be able to have another dinner at Outback Steakhouse with my mom and Eddie...  We used to go there all the time.  My mom and I especially but sometimes Eddie would join as well.

But I can't.  At least I can see some old friends at camp though.  At least I can see my next-door neighbor perform in the show.

He told me again today when we chatted that I'd meet her.  I'd meet her eventually.  It's all in timing and plans.  Just have to wait for that timing and that plan to happen.

Just let life happen and she'll come along... Those were his words.

She could be in Maine... at the camp.  Or just in Maine... Maybe going out the same night that we all go out on the town.  Or maybe she's at the show in July.  Or maybe she's at Nightscape.

Or maybe she's somewhere I can't even imagine where she'd be.  You know, it's weird... Because before I met THAT one girl... I didn't know she even existed.  And then after I met her... I couldn't stop thinking about her from then on.  So like... I guess you can't know that someone is really going to become someone super important in your life... Until they do.

It's like when you hear a new song.  And then after you hear it... You start humming it and you want to listen to it again.  And it becomes just... A "forever song" or something.  But before you knew those notes... You had no idea it even existed or could really have that kind of influence on your life.

And sometimes it works... But sometimes it doesn't and you go different paths...

And then every now and again you find yourself singing that song... That person's song.  And you miss them.  But... What can you do?

It's all in timing and plans.

One thing that's always fun about camp... To end on a lighter note... Is that... there's always new and fun music that I find out about.  So many different people coming from all over the world.  And they all bring things... Ideas.... new music, new things.... and you get to immerse yourself in it.  I love that.  Just letting new things sort of wash over you and soaking them in.

Well, I'm off to finish the final chores on my list and do one last load of laundry and go fill up my tank and get some cash from the ATM and then grab a Wawa sandwich for dinner.