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Acute Vision Loss

So I just talked to the nurse that is managing my mom for the evening... They are starting various tests at the hospital to look into the eyesight issue.

She refereed to it as acute vision loss since it happened suddenly.

A couple of months ago my mom lost vision in one of her eyes.  Then a couple days ago the other started to go blurry.  Now she's pretty much completely blind.

They are starting all sorts of tests to determine what the cause is.  Vision loss can be caused by something in the eye, but it can also be something in the brain or neurological.  I feel super bad for her, but there's not much I can do besides just wait and let the docs do their thing.

For now I'm just managing stuff at home.  I'll probably stay in the next few nights instead of my usual going out.  I generally tend to go out to things... well... mostly coffee shops.  To sip on coffee and write blogs.  I mean these blogs don't write themselves.  Although I don't know if anyone actually reads them.  I used to check the analytics back in the day on a regular basis out of curiosity just to see how many readers I had but I haven't logged into that in a while.  Most of them were spam bots anyways.

So, I was thinking though about my mom not being able to see currently.  Its definitely not a good sense to go missing.  I mean, it's always tough in life when something was there... maybe it's a sense, maybe it's a favorite clothing item, or a person, or even a pet.  I mean anything that you've had a long time, even your whole life and now it's no longer.  It's devastating stuff.  If it comes back, that's a relief.  But sometimes in life things don't come back and then you just have to kind of prepare yourself for that.

I think life IS about... sort of dealing with loss.  That's a big part of life.  I think that's one of the hardest parts of life.  Because when things come into our lives and we never had it before it's sort of this welcome surprise.  It's exciting... it's new.  It's like whoa.  Where the heck did THIS come from!  And we really can't compare life before it.

But then when that thing is suddenly gone from your life.  It's like... ALL you want is to go back.  To get that back.  To change things.  But sometimes you just can't and so then you have to figure out where to go from there.

Hmmm... well who knows what the future will bring with anything.  I guess the most we can do is just hope for the best and cherish the past.  And take whatever comes into our lives or stays in our lives one day at a time.  Then when it's gone... cherish what was.

Hopefully my mom's vision does come back and she can go back to how things were before she lost it.

Well, I was going to write about some new veggie chips that I tried out this week in my work lunch that I actually liked a lot... but then all this happened.  SO perhaps tomorrow or something I'll have to review the chips.  Go back to something lighthearted.  I'm all about trying out new chips, and breads... and various other lunch time snacking items.  Keeps my life a little less seriousness business.