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Just some self reflection

I'm kinda just rambling away my thoughts here... this probably won't be super coherent.  Don't mind me...

So I've been doing some self reflection and thinkings... I definitely realized... my outlook and attitude needs some adjusting.  Soooooo I've decided to adjust that.  I've got lots of good things that I'm working on... sooooo many works in progress.... songs, videos, artwork covers for my next single to upload, and of course two novels... it's a crazy process dealing with it all.  But it's also lots of awesome things to look forward to!

The thing is... I feel like a vessel or conduit for creative energy.  It just kinda comes through and out of me and I can't get it all down fast enough!  I think that kinda frustrates me.  I feel bogged down sometimes by all the other "life" things I have to do.  I feel like I could really do so much more... but I think part of my bogged down issues... also are just an outlook thing.  Soooooooo if I make my attitude more positive about things... I won't waste time and can be more effective!

Also... worry ing about things and stuffs and what nots... definitely makes me less productive with creative things because I'm all worried about if I can fix things in my life... or I worry about that whole finding love thing.  I think it's better if I just kinda don't worry as much about any of that stuff... and just be all positively positive about how things are as is.

"As is" is probably the keyword.  Just taking things as they are and as they come.  That way I can sorta do more with what I have and then in turn make more things happen.  This post is kinda rambly and unspecific.  Buuuuuuuut... I don't know... I feel like I need to be more appreciative of how things are.

So I'm gonna be more into things and people and places "As is".  So that includes not just when things are going well and good... but when they are not going so well also.  Because as annoyed as I was that I had lost power.... I eventually got it back.  Storms don't last forever.  They eventually wind down.  Sooooo there's no sense in me getting all worked up over it.  That doesn't help much anyways.