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One Thousand

Soooooo... I decided to challenge myself this month to stay in more, right?  Right.

Why?  Well, mostly because I was just wasting lots of money on stupid things like going out to bars hoping to meet the love of my life and all that... Which obviously did not happen.

Who knows where she is right now.

Anyways, SO, I decided okay I want to stay in more, do more work at my job remotely to stay ahead, go to yoga more and the gym more and just cook more meals at home and eat healthier and such...

Basically just stack the odds of being more successful in life going forward in my favor.

Well one of my challenges to myself was to see if I could keep my credit card bill for this billing cycle on the lower side.  I made it!  I actually kept it under a thousand dollars, which was basically my goal.

Of course today I just wrote and dropped off a check for the property taxes for my house, which sucks, but hey, the township uses it to run things.  So, it's fine.

But anyways I did make it successfully below my intended credit card budget of 1000 bucks.  Obviously I have other bills to pay... Water, gas and electric... Etc. etc.

I'm definitely going to keep with what I'm doing.  Stick with yoga and the gym and home cooked meals, and focus on trying to gear resources to replacing things around the house, and then as well I REALLY need to focus on making new music and such.  AND I want to upgrade my music software and also buy at least some kind of small drum set or something.

The goal is to focus on things that could possibly bring me success in life.

I guess maybe I've been putting the cart before the horse with love.  Everyone is like... "Oh you find it when you aren't looking..." And stuff like that.

Well, maybe I just need to be in a different place in life in order to meet her.  Maybe I need to be making a significantly higher pay grade.  Or maybe I need a crazy cool job title.  Or maybe I need to just move somewhere new.  Like sell this house, and get out of dodge so to speak.  Try a new city or town.

It's a lot easier to prepare for a big move and selling my house and maybe eventually looking for a new job in some brand new far off land/city if I just stay home and work hard.

I guess it's counter intuitive because you'd think by going out a lot I'd increase my odds of meeting that special someone.  But maybe she doesn't live in this area!  Maybe she lives far away.  And so I have to stay in, in the short term, and work hard, in order to move up to some other place in life... and THAT's how I'll meet her.

I mean, I don't know... You know?  Maybe that's not how I'll meet her.  I guess everyone meets someone in different ways.  Certainly you can't possibly know where to meet someone before you meet them, or there'd be no use for dating sites, or singles cruises, or singles social clubs, or speed dating... Etc. etc.

Because everyone could just dial in on where the person they are supposed to marry is and GPS the way to find love.

Doesn't work like that though.  It's like a casino... Or the lottery... Eventually, your number comes up.

But no one knows where or when.

So for now... I just focus on what I know I can accomplish and forget about meeting someone who may or may not ever even exist.  I mean, it's entirely possible that I never meet this love of my life.

But I KNOW that I can work hard at work, I can work out a lot, I can work on recording and creative things and I can work on my house.  It's not like if I go to Lowes, maybe I'll find paint.

If I go to Lowes... there will be paint.  No doubt about it.

And then my walls will have a nice fresh coat of paint on them after I paint them.

If I go out to a bar and waste money on beers and stand there trying to talk to women...  I'll be out money, it's bad for my health... And I'll still need to paint my walls.

It's just pointless and a waste of time TRYING to find her.

So, I need to focus on the fact that I can work on making new email accounts from home over the weekend.  And knowing that when I walk into work on Monday morning I can say... "Oh, that email account for that new staff member?  Yeah I did that over the weekend."

I can't 100 percent guarantee that no one is going to say... "You did that already?  You suck."

Never going to happen.  You will 100 percent of the time always get... "You did that already?  Sweet!  Wow.  Thanks!"

And then the person who was requesting the work to be done will be like... "Yeah, that's awesome."

SO, that's the new plan.  Hunker down... Stay in.  Give up on meeting that special someone as it's just a waste of time and money and effort that hasn't lead me to her as of yet, and probably won't ever lead me to her...

At least as far as the bar scene goes it won't.

But maybe hard work will and if that doesn't lead me to her either... I still get rewarded for it either way!