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Just have to believe

It's totally corny.  But it's true!  I've doubted myself a lot on my ability to actually produce any kind of real income from my music... or any of my creative ventures.  I always thought in my head... I'm not "legit" as far as a musician or creative person goes.  I used to go to shows and watch people on stage and go well see THEY are real.  I'm just a dude that makes music for fun.

But you know, at some point they were just people that did what they did for fun too!  I think it's all about really just believing that you do have the ability to take things to the next level.  I mean everyone started somewhere.  Made something out of very little resources.  I have this dream to basically just be able to produce all kinds of media... music, videos, books, tv shows, movies... you name it.  I kinda just want to fuel my creativity with more creativity.  Like... try to just keep reinvesting almost all of what I make back into itself... and grow my creative production abilities more and as they grow I can grow them more!

I don't really care about a lavish lifestyle.  Even if I were making millions of dollars a year.  I'd live pretty scaled back compared to the income.  I'd rather use that money to produce more things... to put back into communities... to put back into helping people...

I mean you're talking to a guy that just ditched a 15 inch computer for a 13 inch.  I was going to buy this big massive monitor... I still might... but... more and more I'm thinking... this is fine!  I mean there are sooooo many people that don't even have a computer!  I should be lucky just to have this.  And I am very lucky.

But any who yea... I've got this whole plan drawn up as far as posting things online and building a global fan base.  And just trying to build a creative production lab of sorts... then I can just scale it up and up and up and away.  I just have to believe that any thing is possible.  I think it definitely is.

Part of my plan is to just keep doing what I've been doing lately and come home after work... to... get to work!  Tonight I'm pretty sure I finished up my new song.  I just have to take a little break and listen to it again tomorrow.  I also started work on cutting out some construction paper things... or continued cutting out what I had started.  I played around with the new premier CS6... it's not too different from CS4.

So yes all efforts are currently going to work and then creative... I might take 1 or maybe 2 nights a week to just relax maybe order a pizza and watch some Netflix things.

I'm feeling accomplished lately... I am about to finish another iTunes U course.  It's on programming and databases and data structures.  I found that stuff rather interesting.  Support is what I do for a living... but I think databases are kinda interesting as well.  I'm fascinated with javascript too.  Probably going to download some more computer science courses.  By far my favorite college professor of all the courses I've listened to... this guy David Malan at Harvard.  He's just the coolest.  He's the most passionate professor I've ever experience.  This includes all my own schoolings... I mean this guy is just great.  Also he really gets the subject matter across in a way that's really easy to comprehend.  So yea 10 of 10 stars to that guy for being an awesome prof.

I think that's part of my current motivation high I'm on... that professor talked in the course about how he came to Harvard as a freshman and didn't have any background in computer science related stuff at all... he took an intro course and picked it up and went all the way through with it and now he's like one of the main professor guys there!  Sooooo all it takes is a little passion and a little patience.

And just have to believe... it can all happen.