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A bit worried

So about 2 or 3 weeks ago I had this REALLY bad nightmare.  It was basically the worst dream ever.  I even tweeted about it during the night right after I dreamt it.  I woke up in tears and everything.  The dream was that... I was at camp, which I am now... and it was raining a lot, which it has been and is now... and then my mom got an infection in her arm from her IV and she was delaying going to the hospital, which she has now and she's delaying going...

Then in the dream one of the next things was I was suddenly home and beside her crying because she had died.  So... I'm a bit freaked out.  She's supposed to possibly go to the hospital tomorrow.  I told her that I think she should go tonight.  She wants to wait until tomorrow to go because today they came to her house and took blood samples which are being processed at the lab.  So... yea.  I'm just kinda hoping/praying that things turn out OK.  She said her fever is back down a bit from what it was.  It was spiking up at 102 each time she did some IV fluids so it's most likely a PICC line infection.  She needs the fluids because she has trouble staying hydrated just drinking regular water due to the general nature of the longtime illness she has.  So it's important for her to run the fluids. If she can't because that's where the infection is that will make things even more complicated.

But yea, I told her that she definitely should go tonight and not delay.  She said that she will not hesitate to call 911 if she has to.  Currently she still has some old time friends staying from california but, they leave tomorrow.  I think she is trying to wait for them to leave tomorrow and then go to the hospital after they leave.  I guess at least it's semi comforting knowing there are people at the house with her.  But i'd rather her be in the hospital even if it's nothing major.  I'm really thinking that maybe I should come home a little early.  She's had infections many times before, but the dream I had was REALLY vivid and so I'm just super worried.  I'm supposed to be here in Maine until Friday and then head back.  I might head back tomorrow or Thursday depending on how things go.  So I'm just keeping close communication with her and trying to get frequent updates.

Like I said I'm definitely very worried though because a lot of the dream is the same as what's going on and it was very VERY vivid and just scary.  So hopefully things turn out ok and the fever goes away.  I'm hoping that she just gets better and doesn't need to visit the hospital.  But if she does I'm hoping she goes as soon as possible and then gets better quickly.

Any thoughts/hopes/prayers in this general direction to me or my mom would be greatly appreciated.