I think this is going to be one of those writing just to write posts... I'll try to write something coherent... but we'll see what comes out.
Actually, I think that best describes how I need to act at this moment in my life. I think most of the time try too hard to make sense of the world around me. I try to fit things into maybe... groups? Or... I guess formulas? Or past experiences? Or try to compare them to past experiences. Or compare myself to others or...
I don't really know. I just need to go with the flow more though. I mean I have no idea what each new day will bring! It might bring hardship, or trials and tribulations. Or it could bring gifts galore! I think that I can plan as best I can and try to prepare myself for what's up next, but really there's no way to tell. I don't have the whole map of time in at my disposal. There is someone who does, but it's not me... maybe this is my way of saying that thinking or over thinking situations in the past, or how I wish I had acted. Or maybe wishing I could be a better person in the future... is all ok to do. And I should wish to always try to be a better person...
But the best thing to do I think right now is more just kinda go with the flow. Just let things take their course and what happens will happen. I mean... if something is meant to happen a certain way... It will. And if it's not then it won't. Or if things are meant to just stay how they are then they will stay how they are. And I really need to learn to let that all happen.
Hopefully that is all semi coherent writing and makes some sense.
I guess I'm going to meander in my blog a little real quick... to something sorta related but kinda not really related.
So I had this weird thought today... about the Sun (yep... that bright circle looking object in the sky). My thought was this...
Well so... one of the most important things in the whole solar system that helps to sustain life and provides food and all that... is the Sun. Right? I mean if you took away the Sun... there would be no crops growing... and also... I think it would be rather cold out all the time. And as well we'd spend a lot of money on electric bills keeping all the lights on all the time.
Well soooo... here's this thing floating up there in the sky... or rather we're floating around it... ok well anyways... so yea there's this thing that does SO much for us! Right? I mean... it really is kind of super important.
Yet... not one single person on this planet has any control over that resource. I mean... not like we have control over rivers with dams... or control over the soil with modern farm equipment. Or... well... I think everyone knows what I'm getting at.
The thing just does it's thing day in and day out... no matter what. And there isn't some guy or gal out there pushing number keypads or buttons... or crank shafts... And it certainly doesn't ever close for maintenance. And as far as it's uptime guarantee? It's even got Google beat!
And it just hit me... like... how magnificent is that? Even our most sophisticated machinery here on earth still goes off line sometimes. It's NOTHING compared to the Sun! And sooo I guess my thought was just kind of like wow...
That's what it's like to create something that is basically pretty much perfect! That's a creation of the heavens. But the idea is that... I mean... to me it makes me see well wow I need to just be more like the creation of the Sun.
Maybe I'm not making real sense or I don't know where I'm going with this. But I'm trying to say that things that are closer to perfect... aren't creations of us humans. Things that we do and say and make can be pretty damn good...
but they aren't... well... God. Good... but not god.
So if I try to MAKE a friendship/relationship/Family tie/Coworker bonding... etc.... if I try to MAKE that happen... it won't be anywhere nearly as strong and good and as close to perfect as possible...
as if I just let it make itself... or perhaps be guided into being made. So, basically i'm saying in otherwords... things will happen when and how they are supposed to happen!
So I really need to just go with the flow and let it all take shape the way it's supposed to be created instead of trying to make shapes and creations by force.
I mean, right? I guess? I don't know for sure but... that's just what I've been thinking lately.
So God makes the Sun and that thing just works... people make...Sun chips. And as good as Sun chips are... well... you know what I mean right?
But as well all life on the planet really relies on the Sun! And also the sun as been around for a LONG time! But even the oldest human made buildings... eventually crumble... so If I rely on only human creation in my life... it won't last as long or as strong as if I let God help create things in my life through me.