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Do you ever wake up with a song in your heart?

Today I woke up with a song in my heart.

I can't stop playing it over and over again.  I woke up crying... I had a dream that someone I know died... with a whole bunch of us standing around the person in the ER... and this person was laying there and fighting for life... and...

just kept saying goodbye quieter and quieter and quieter... and everyone else just watched... all we could do was watch...

The doctor just stood there... and the nurse just stood there.

each breath they were more silent than the next...

and each time they breathed in they said goodbye with the next exhale...

and slowly it just got more and more shallow...

and quieter and quieter and everyone got closer and closer to them and held their hand...

until finally there were no more goodbyes...

and the last breath came out but nothing back in.

Then there was just silence... and everyone was looking at each other... and I said...

"say something... someone say something.  Please! PLEASE!  JUST SAY SOMETHING!!"

and everyone just started saying "I'm sorry" back...

and I just kept saying "no"... and crying... and all they said was "i'm sorry"... and I was screaming "NO" to everyone and just crying... and they just gathered around me and hugged me and I tried to fight everyone away... but I had no energy... I just fell to the floor and sobbed... quietly just saying no.

Then the nurse put this song on in the background.  I woke up with it in my head... but not just in my head.  It was in my heart.  It was in my soul today.

The lyrics are just so sad but I don't know I'm not sad at all... so I don't understand why I feel this song so much in my heart today.

I feel like last night I said goodbye to someone in my sleep except there isn't anyone I said goodbye to!  I don't understand it...

I've seriously just had this song on repeat today nonstop... over 25 listens... what is wrong with me?  I just keep thinking of the dream when listening to this... every breath, every goodbye... quieter than the next... until there is just nothing left.

so here's the song:

It's called "Say Something" by Ian Axel

http://grooveshark.com/s/Say+Something/3xF2IQ?src=5

 

Say something, I’m giving up on you
I’ll be the one if you want me to
Anywhere I would have followed you
Say something, I’m giving up on you

And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all

And I will stumble and fall
I’m still learning to love
Just starting to crawl

Say something, I’m giving up on you
I’m sorry that I couldn’t get to you
Anywhere I would have followed you
Say something, I’m giving up on you

And I will swallow my pride
You’re the one that I love
And I’m saying goodbye

Say something, I’m giving up on you
I’m sorry that I couldn’t get to you
And anywhere I would have followed you
Say something, I’m giving up on you

Say something, I’m giving up on you
Say something