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If autotune was never invented I would not still be recording music

I did open mic tonight and man it was just pure suck.  hahah yea it just reminds me that I need to not quit my day job.

I think i definitely need to stop thinking that anything "real" is ever going to happen with my music.  I mean ok I have fun so that's fine.  At least open mic gets me out and I meet cool people and have fun.  But I don't really think I'm going to ever book a show ever again.  I definitely like writing and recording music, but if autotune was never invented I would not still be doing music.  I really need to just realize that I can't carry a tune at all.

I really felt like crap tonight because I was up there on stage and just off to the right in the back were these 3 beefy arms folded testorone let's hit up the gym and pump iron for 8 hours together guys that just kept looking back and forth at each other and laughing and you could TELL that they were totally saying "MAN this guy SUCKS".

So I was just like ok let's just finish this up and get off stage.

I'm always going to be that ugly duckling reject dude that no one wants.  haha I just need to face that and realize that's who I am.  I'm not that big beefy testosterone sports playing gym pump iron guy that all the people think is sooooooo cool.

So I guess i'll just keep doing what i'm doing and doing open mics.  But I definitely won't ever book anymore shows because I just hate those type of people in the crowd.  I can stand them for 2 songs but no more than that.

Oh well... I'm just THAT guy that people make fun of.  haha... I need to just admit it.  Sigh, I kinda suck.  I keep thinking one day I won't suck and I'll be cool... but let's see... I'm 28... there is no uphill from here.

It's pretty much ALL downhill.