But The Crab Dip Was Fantastic!
My post tomorrow will be just lighthearted and funny... actually... I think I'm going to try and make most of my posts lighthearted and funny. I don't really like writing about the whole serious business thing... but tonight I've decided to write more serious because tonight was all about the "serious business".
I wrote this as my ending... but I like it as a starter too... so i'll put it here as well:
I guess it's the artist in me speaking out. But to me... it's not about how much money you have in the bank... it's about doing something you love doing.
To me... I would rather have a modest life and be around people I love and care about and just in general love what i'm doing than to be rich beyond belief and live in a crazy giant house and all that jazz...
So my little meetup invite tonight was nothing more than a marketing attempt of something that i've already been pitched on 4 separate occasions. It kinda made me sad... I don't know... I guess... just something about the idea of it all just made me really sad!
2 people at work are doing this... along with 2 other friends that I know from open mic.
The keyword here is "saturation" because more and more people I know are jumping into this... and I think in the near future you might not be able to walk down the street without someone coming up to you asking to sell you deregulated energy. But it's mostly just very MLM to me. Those who get in on the top profit... those who don't? Well...
It's basically reselling of energy. I'm sure you've already had someone come up to you and ask to market this to you already. It's spreading like wildfire. People are pitched the idea hoping to "quit" their day jobs and make a boat load of cash. For some this might happen... for most... they may not even see their initial investment recovered.
I'm ALL about starting your own business... I just think it should be a fun idea and something you love!
Maybe, like... it takes time to build up the business... so you really feel accomplished! You know? And like you have a real connection to it personally. I think it should be something that takes a while to come up with a good business plan and maybe takes some creative thinking and some trial and error and really something that fits your personality!
I don't like the whole idea of just kinda signing up in 5 minutes and suddenly you are the proud new business owner of your very own business franchise trying to sign up others to do the same thing...
All I can say again is that it just makes me sad. Like... I don't know the whole thing irks me. 🙁
Soooo... MLM's have been around for ages... they are sort of a spin off the original Pyramid Schemes. Initial Pyramid Schemes implode quickly because they don't rely on anything more than the future investors paying off existing ones. Basically they are completely illegal.
Here's some quick info on the Pyramid Scheme:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pyramid_scheme
So this mutated to something else called an MLM or Multi Level Marketing... It's based on the idea of a Pyramid but that you get income for signing up people and then those people get income from those they sign up and etc. etc... down to X amount of levels. It's all well and great but as more and more people sign up it becomes harder to sign up more people...
MLM's really are VERY similar to Pyramid Scheme's except that they have an actual product that is offered for sale... so generally this prolongs or attempts to create a more sustainable business model... but i'm pretty sure every MLM I've ever seen has eventually imploded once it reached saturation and the number of newbies to it slowed to a trickle.
basically just read this:
http://entrepreneurs.about.com/cs/multilevelmktg/a/problemwithmlm.htm
So I could seriously write a book on this. And there are a TON of books out there. I'm only going to focus on one small thing and keep it to that...
It's not that MLM is "bad" as in a complete fraudulent scam. It's not... at least I think? It kinda just feels wrong though... but also it's just that to me it's bad because it makes things well... for the most part awkward...
let me explain...
So really the idea of this MLM is that you are supposed to sign up friends or family to get them to either A: sell energy as well... or B: buy the energy you are selling...
cool. or hot? Well... I'm gonna say ok... also not terrible... but this makes things as I said awkward. I mean anyone trying to sell things to you is usually awkward when you don't need it...
ok this is a bad example, but it's late and I'm tired... but girl scout cookies, maybe? Although, see I LOVE thin mints... also it helps a good cause... so ok i'm cool with girl scout cookies.
I feel odd using this example... but it's all I can think of right now... I SWEAR i'm NOT against girl scout cookies!!!! I buy them every year!
But just for a second think about a girl scout selling cookies who is also your neighbor or relative. You basically can't say no without REALLY looking like you should be hanging out with the Grinch at Christmas time (and you can't really say no to a girl scout even if they aren't your friend or relative). That's a problem because now you've created some bad vibes in your circle of friends or family. Well the same thing happens with not just this program but all MLM's for the most part... if you say yes and buy in (and you do in fact have to pay a fee of 300 bucks + 25 bucks a month to sign up) then you are cool and become one of "them". But if you say no... instantly you've "shafted" your friends or family member. Not good. Not good at all... this is how wars start. Or, at least rifts in groups of people. I think?
All I know is I DO feel bad when I say no to girl scouts at the store because I already bought 12 boxes from the other girls down the street! Don't you feel bad?
Sometimes I buy a box anyways.
This is what I feel will happen with the energy selling thing... it will be all these people who already signed up at the tail end trying to sell to all these other people who have already signed up! And since it costs 300 bucks to sign up then what? And the 25 bucks a month on top of that?
It just sounds like trouble to me!
At least girl scout cookies can be frozen and eaten over time... you can't freeze energy and eat it over time.
At least I don't think you can?
The other problem is that someone hoping to find some new friends where he lives gets approached by a neighbor and asked to basically hang out. This is the way they are marketing this... they are told to be very secretive about it and just kinda make it almost seem like a friendly gathering... then maybe make some fancy food or play some board games or watch a movie...
then... spring the sales pitch on them. So a person who might have thought they had some people genuinely interested in becoming new friends instead were finding that they are now part of a VERY complex and elaborate business model to make some extra cashola...
Sigh... this might make the person slightly sad... especially if you are like me and having genuine authentic friends is more important than having people interested in signing you up for something.
But... I will say... the presentation was super professional and if I were a college business professor I would have given them all A's!
Also... the crab dip was absolutely FANTASTIC!
But I had to decline the offer to make a thousand billion million dollars and retire to hawaii in the next year. I feel bad that I didn't catch the drift of what was happening sooner...
I feel like I took up their time! So that makes me even more sad about it all. Like... I don't know... again it just makes me feel all irky because I don't know... I came over and they made the crab dip and which was yummy but then i ate the dip and sat and talked...
I feel like I took something that wasn't entitled to me... like I was the mooch... with the dip or something?
Well... again, I don't know... so... that's all I wanted to say...
I guess it's the artist in me speaking out. But to me... it's not about how much money you have in the bank... it's about doing something you love doing.
Photographing Lightning
My attempt at photographing lightning...
Full size here: http://www.bennyeast.com/share/2011/20110821.jpg
OK... soooooo this storm just rolled up and I grabbed my camera... and was just like whoa those are some MEAN clouds! So I started taking pics of the clouds. THEN I started to see lightning on the horizon...
SO, I attempted to capture some shots... at first I got nothing. Then I waited and sat by my window and still nothing. So I gave up for a little bit. Then I got my camera again and decided to give it another shot. I got this picture... I got SOOOOOO excited about it that I put my camera in view mode and stared at the little strike. Then I decided to tweet about it. Wooooo I got a lightning strike on camera!
After I post the tweet... I go back to the couch and stare out the window thinking... what are the ODDS I'd actually capture that?
Then...
...as I'm staring out the window thinking about picking my camera back up to see if I can get more...
a GIANT strike... it was only a second or 2 between seeing the strike and hearing the thunder so it was LITERALLY JUST BEHIND THAT BUILDING... it ran basically exactly where the other strike was but in front of the clouds but behind the building.
This thing was just WOW... lit up the whole sky!
Nooooooooooo!!!!
I missed it. I thought the little itty bitty one was as good as it got that I totally missed the big one! Now it was a huge strike that lasted maybe a full half second or second... so it's tough to say if I would have tapped the button quick enough to get the shot... but it would have made a MAGNIFICENT photograph!
The little itty bitty strike came in a whole group, so I think I just got lucky with getting the tail end of a bunch of little strikes.
I liken it to fishing... maybe the big one got away... but for my first time trying to reel one in... at least I got something!
A TV Character I Think Is Cool
So, I kinda miss writing my whole "blog-a-day-thingy-ma-doodle" thing. It helped me with thinking of creative ideas and always trying to keep my head thinking of things... keep my mind ticking creatively etc. etc. It was fun and I've slacked off a bit. Sooooooo I think I'm going to try and do that again. It was fun to go to the coffee shop and have something to think about and do a little research on and write about sooooo this is my attempt number 2 to start writing more posts of the blog kind daily orrrrrrr maaaaaybe every other day-ly... we'll see... It's sort of like, if you don't keep the ball rolling with ideas then the ball rolls slower... until it stops. Soooooo I'm trying to play more rolly ball... or skiball... or kickball... or something with a ball.
So today my post is... a TV Character I Think Kicks Some Sassafrass... or is cool.
So I thought for a while. There are a LOT of characters from a lot of shows that rock. But there's one that I used to totally LOVE from back in the day. I watched EVERY episode of this show in the whole series. So the character I'm-a-gonna-choose is... Daria.
She's one of the most coolest tv peeps in my opinion.
here's a description of her from IMDB:
"A smart & cynical girl goes through teenage life as a proud outsider in a world of mainly idiotic teens and condescending adults."
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0118298/
Especially when this aired I TOTALLY related to her on so many levels... except for the whole fact that she is a girl and I am a guy. But on every other level... TOTALLY related. At least at the time. I don't know if I still do so much.... probably because we were both in high-school at the time.
I just enjoy her way that she kind of looks at the world and points things out rather than just walking through it. Like she's very aware and isn't afraid to speak her mind no matter what others might think. I love that where she's just like hey say what you want and want what you say and mean what you say and say what you mean kinda thing. I feel like maybe a lot of people just sorta go through motions of life but don't really stop and look around and say hey... ya know what's up with all of this? Maybe? Question things, how can we make things better... how can we be more or do more?
At least that's kinda what I got out of watching that.
I know a lot of people used to say back in the day I don't like that show because she talks all mono tone with the talking thing... but I didn't mind it... it's just sorta how she be... the other thing was how she always seemed to be sad most of the time. But I don't really think she was sad... so it's ok. But if she was all happy peppy then she wouldn't be the Daria character she is. I think that was part of the point, like that maybe no one should be SUPER happy ALL the time... and at the same time they shouldn't be SUPER sad ALL the time...
A good mix of emotions... like chex mix but for emotions. An emotional bag of Chex Mix.
Anywho so if you've never seen the show i'm sure there are clips on youtube and such. So you can check her out...
To me she's just kinda like commentary on life... this outside perspective that sometimes just makes fun of how ridiculous life is most of the time. Cuz I feel like sometimes life is a bit ridiculous. So you just kinda have to stand back from it and distance yourself for a little bit to get perspective on things.
Sooooo who's your favorite TV character?
I think my second place would probably be Kitt from Knight Rider. Cuz who doesn't dream of a talking car that can open it's own doors and come pick you up when you are in danger!?
I wonder if he ever had him come pick him up when he was drunk at a party?
Party host guy: "Excuse me, Michael... I'm going to have to insist I take your keys... I've seen the way you've been walking and I think you have had a little tooooo much to drink!"
David Hasselhoff's character: "Noo, No... it's ok... I have a talking crime fighting indestructible super intelligent car! It will be able to drive me home on it's own..."
Party host guy: "Uh... riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight. I think I'll be taking those keys now."
David Hasselhoff's character: "That's quite alright... I've got a spare set in the car... I'll just ask my car to unlock itself or climb in the moonroof." (see above picture)
Note: don't stand next to your car drunk asking it to unlock itself... especially if there are lots of people around.
Public Service Announcement: don't drink and drive either! Stay safe make sure you have a Designated Driver person!
Why pizza is the most awesomest food ever
OK... soooo I feel like blogging and I don't feel like writing anything serious. So here's a fun blog about why pizza is so awesome.
Well first off you can really order it for nearly any occasion. I mean pizza is for everyone! It's universal... for... party. It can be ordered at work... or for a kiddie bday... or when you are a college student hungry at midnight... It's also good for like a family on a friday night. Or seriously it's just good whenever!
It's hard to get bored of pizza. You can order it in all kinds of ways with all kinds of different toppings. My favorite is pepperoni. But I like all the other types of toppings out there. You don't have to stick to just one topping! You can mix and match combinations and it will almost usually always still taste yummy... (not always though... there are some combinations that just don't work).
...of course there's the whole shapes and sizes thing... you can get as small as little itty bitty personal ones. Or you can order mega size pies for gatherings of friends.
There's also cheese-less pizzas... or tomato pies... or there's cheese only pizza... There's upscale pizzas even like wood fired flatbread brick oven type things!
Oh there's deep dish too, and stuffed crust. There's whole wheat pizzas.
Pizza is also fun to say... cuz it sounds like peet-sah but it's spelled piz-zah...
I think best of all you can eat it tons different ways: Some cut up in nice neat pieces with a fork, some eat the crust first, some don't eat the crust at all, some fold it, some burn the roof of their mouth with it, some dip it in a saucy sauce, some put mega hot hot sauces on it.
But the best part about pizza is even when things all ho-hum at the moment when you order pizza... everything is awesome again. Mmmmm Mmmm Mmmm!
So, there ya go. That's my fun blog on why pizza is the most awesomest food ever to be invented.
yea yea yea... maybe it's not really all that healthy for you... buuuuuuut... it's still awesome.
A short little rainy day story
So when I was little I lived in California. Often we'd have droughts. And there would be no watering the lawn or anything like that. Now this was bad news for me because when I was 6 and lived in california my favorite thing to do was play out in the sprinkler when it was hot out. But when you are 6 seriously isn't running and jumping through the sprinkler the cooooolest thing ever? I think it is.
Now the other thing about California is that the school hallways were outdoors. So the school buildings were more like a "strip mall" in California. Whereas here on the east coast the schools are built more like regular malls. So there's one entrance and all your shops... or class rooms are down hallways.
Well so when it rains things get all wet and yucky when trying to get from one class to another...even though there are awnings/canopies/overhangs and such some of the getting from one place to another still can get you a little wet.
SOooooooo the teachers would have us sing songs when walking around from one class to another. One of those songs... was... "rain rain go away" when it would rain.
Which is all fine and good... but one day when it was raining and we were walking from one building to another the teacher was having us sing the song. But I thought well hold on a second, for the last month I haven't been allowed to run through the sprinkler because it's been drier than... umm... the inside of a dryer for the last 2 months!
SO... I'm walking behind everyone kind of sad and confused and not really keeping pace with the whole line... then I called out to the teacher in the front of the line. Everyone stopped in their tracks turned around as they turned around the singing rain rain go away protest faded out. (except that one kid who was REALLY into it, he just kept singing and walking for another 30 feet until he realized no one else was with him)
"Yes, Kenny?"
So everyone was staring at me mouths gapped open wide as if to say... "he interrupted the song!"
(and also he's not standing in a single file line anymore)...
So then I got kinda nervous... and I'm looking back at all these staring eyes... as they are looking at me...
I pause for a moment. Then I say...
"Well... it doesn't make any sense."
The teacher says, "what doesn't make any sense?"
I say, "The song... I don't understand."
Then she says, "oh... well what don't you understand about it?"
The other kids eyes are wide as they dart back and forth between me and the teacher like some kinda Forest Gump ping pong match.
So then I say, "Well, It hasn't rained in months and it's finally raining... and everyone says we need the rain and so the rain is good and here you are telling us to tell something good to go away! You are telling us to tell the rain to go away, but we need the rain because we haven't had any rain... so I don't want to sing this song any more... I refuse to sing the song. Because we need rain so I can play with the sprinkler at home and you want us to tell the rain to go away!"
The teacher was... hmmm... we'll say caught off guard and was thinking hard of what to say.
I was on the verge of tears.
So the teacher said "well what would you like to sing?"
I said "How about we change the lyrics and have them say, rain rain here to stay, make the drought go away"
Then the other kids all laughed.
And the teacher said "That's a lovely idea, but how about we just sing something else."
The kids laughed more.
We started singing an alternative children's song... of twinkle twinkle little star and marched on...
But lets be honest... REALLY she was just being sneaky. If the stars are out that evening twinkling away then the rain has gone away... hasn't it?
I THINK it has.
You win this one... Ms. Teacher Lady.
Some recording thoughts “The Joneses” effect
I'm sure everyone has heard that phrase about keeping up with The Joneses... It's the idea that your next-door neighbor (growing up I thought it was "next-store", although I also thought planned parent hood was "Planet Parenthood" you know, like Planet Hollywood, but I eventually figured it out) makes something better at their house and then your stuff looks like crap now and so you have to go buy something better... it's like some sort of race with your neighbor over who has the more top of the line garden equipment.... or something like that. Ok... welllllll the same thing happens to me when I'm recording...
So I was recording yesterday and I did some good takes during the week... but THEN I did 2 little GREAT takes yesterday. Well then I end up listening to it and the other stuff I did sounds not as good! So then I have to delete those tracks and re-do those. Then I give it the good old Siskel and Ebert two thumbs up.
Then I go to record or work on some other part of the track. I re-do some more of that... and then it sounds AWESOME... but then it makes the other parts sound like crap! So then I have to go back and re-do those...
Now, it's not really a bad thing, because it makes the song eventually sound pretty grandiose! So that part is good. But the thing about it is that there is a lot of re-doing... this means I delete a lot. I do, then delete, then do then delete. So that makes it so that recording a song takes sooooooooooo long! And especially when I want to get it all posted. Anywho so that was just a thought I wanted to share about recording.
Interestingly enough I noticed that this same thing happened while editing my first photo shoot thing... I didn't see this effect when I was editing one at a time and posting on my photo section. But when I did an entire shoot with LOTS of photos.... I noticed as I started editing I'd get one that I thought was amazing. Then I'd edit another and love that one even more and then not like the other one as much and want to go back and tweak that. Then I'd do a third that I was just WOWed by and then want to go back and edit the 1st and 2nd to make it like the third... etc. etc.
So again this drives the creativity and makes it better and better... but it can be bad because if I keep tweaking things for a long time then it can kinda wear me out! Soooo yea. Sometimes there's that whole... "ok... this works, just leave it." thing that I have to do at some point.
Anywho that's just something I was thinking/thoughting about yesterday when I was recording. I've never actually asked other musicians about this. I wonder if this happens to them as well? I'd be curious to find out. I think I'll bring it up next time I'm hanging out at an open mic. Oh it also happens when writing a song. If I write a fantastic bridge, or verse then I'll go back and re-write another part. I'm sure it happens to everyone in some way shape or form.
Actually now that I think about it... this kind of happened in school with presentations. The first person/group would go and they would have no idea at ALL what they were doing exactly doing. Then the second person/group after watching the first would tweak their game plan... and the third would do away with or add what needed to be there etc. etc.
And then I've been the first group or person to go before because I always like to get it done and over with so I just volunteer to go right away. Well by the 3rd 4th or 5th... I'm just like oh maaaaaaaaaaannnnnn... I should have done that! And then I want to go again.
And that's why I love recording so much. Because you can always go back and fix or re-do the messed up parts. 🙂 In school... you kinda just have to accept your sucky grade and that's that. Unless it's one of those funky cool new age profs that comes up with some way for you to "revise" your grade by adding "extra credit" or what have you. But that's rare.
So that's my theory on The Jonesesan Recording umm... theory.
Little Red Blinky Light
So I went to sleep and now i'm up... I'm staring out the window at the little red blinky light on top of the building down the street and over from my building.
It's always just going... blinking away... working hard doing it's blinky thing. Seeeeeee now THAT's an easy job.
light bulb guy: OK MR. LIght Allllllll you have to do is.... Just turn off and on again... got it? OK good.
Light: GOT IT!
Blink... Blink... Blink...
Light: I Think i'm getting the hang of it!
man... if only life were THAT easy!
The thing that I don't get is... Really? The building isn't all that tall... I mean... there aren't any airplanes that really fly tooo close by? I mean... So Mr. Blinky red light is doing an awesome job at his job... but... does he really need to be up there?
Maybe he's more just there as a sign... like a beacon of hope... Like I will never stop blinking... I'm always here... no matter what... all you have to do is look up. And here I am.
These are the things I think about when I wake up randomly in the middle of the night. Apparently.
Hmmm... I feel like this is like one of those beer commercials... you know the ones...
"Sooo Mr. Blinky Red Light that keeps on blinking up in the sky like a beacon of hope... To you... we salute you!"
(I keep accidentally typing bacon. Bacon of hope.)
I'm gonna youtube to see if I can find those commercials...
OH snap yes... REAL MEN OF GENIUS!!!!
MR. REALLY REALLY BAD DANCER... I LOVE THESE COMMERCIALS!
Actually here's a few of them: MR. GIANT TACO SALAD INVENTOR! hahahahaa
oh gosh... I love these... OK and on that note... I'm gonna get back to sleep. But here's a medley of "Real Men of Genius". I love how the preview picture is the grizzly back hair dude. hahahahah... yep.
and on that note... good night! It's back to sleep for me!
Stumbling through life
So... I don't know... most of the things in my life I find by accident somehow well just stumbling around. I think that's most of us right? Like just kinda putting your hands out in the pitch black of the middle of the night and then feeling around and kinda going "Ah Ha!" when you find what you were looking for... like the light switch.
Oh... wait... that wasn't the light switch.
It's the switch to get slimed... and apparently get turned into Katy Perry? (in case the picture above is missing it's a picture of Katy Perry getting slimed... so the joke doesn't work if the picture above isn't there... then it's just like huh?)
Hmm... what kinda light switch is this!?!?!
Well, I don't have a picture of myself getting slimed. Sooo I just used that. If you don't know getting slimed it was a nickelodeon thing from back in the 90's.
Anywho actually speaking of Katy Perry music is what I was getting at... so today I was listening to Grooveshark at work...
And I stumbled upon this album accidentally:
This should link to it:
http://grooveshark.com/#/search?q=punk+goes+'90s+-+various+artists
It's all the classic 90's hits songs that remind me of growing up as a younginer one... except that... they are punky... sorta.
It's actually good! I don't know it's weird though because you expect these songs to sound the way they always have... but they don't. They kinda sound the same... but at the same time... they are new and different.
It's weird. But at the same time... I don't know, I kinda enjoy it.
I think maybe the reason why I've been thinking about it today is because that's sorta like where I feel like I'm at in life. Does anyone else feel that way? Like the past is still there... sorta... except there's new people playing the old music. The friends and all the things that are happening in your life are kind of the same except different. But the thing is it makes things very much so like I kinda don't know where it's going and so I feel like I'm stumbling my way through... So things are old, but new... but I'm stumbling my way through? Like a room with the same furniture that's been re-arranged...
no, no... same arrangement... different furniture. But I say embrace it...
I'm gonna go in that room and sit on that furniture and what the heck... I'll listen to the old 90's songs in their new form. Maybe a party will break out and there will be dancing and drinks and chips and all kinds of party games like twister and phase 10 and who knows what else!
And then after the party is over you can re-arrange the furniture. Just make sure you don't come home after dark and forget to turn a light on... I did that one time. It ended in me doing the whole... "Hope you have a nice trip... see ya next fall" thing. Or whatever that joke saying is.
Does any of this make sense to anyone or am I just rambling? Well, I hope it kinda makes sense. But the deal is just that it's fun and fresh and new... and I think maybe what i'm getting out of this is that yes life is sort of the old still there but it comes back in new forms... if it didn't then I guess life wouldn't be as interesting ya know? And as well sometimes you just stumble onto cool new things when you least expect it. Life is sorta all about new twists and turns and new and interesting things... but at the same time it's about still having that old stuff there as well. New built on old.
Still making sense/or not making sense? Probably because i'm rather sleepy. Anyways, the album is good and it's worth checking out. 90's songs but in updated "punk" style... although honestly they don't sound TOO punk to me... so if you aren't into punk punk music you might still like the songs!
So... that's all I have to say tonight. I'm actually pretty tired for it being only nearly 10pm... I think I might just go to sleep. Cuz, why not? A little extra sleep probably would do me good. Soooooo I'm a gonna say goodnight yo. especially the yo part... cuz that's what I say... yo. I don't know where I got that... some time in the 90's I think people started saying it at school and so then it just stuck. Who knows? ok NOW I'm rambling. Definitely time for some sleep! night.
Finished writing a new song today
So last night my mind was just turning and turning and I don't know... I went out to karaoke and that let me relax... then I came home and kinda passed out... when I woke up... it was turning again. By turning I mean it was just like there's stuff that I keep thinking about over and over again. So in order to NOT think...
I decided to really finish writing this hero song... and I did... I was stuck in a few places... the second verse, the bridge and then the ending... but it all just kinda came together in a few hours of playing around on my guitar.
Then I got the recording software all setup as far as making the outline of the tracks to record. It's pretty much on the start to sounding REALLY amazing.
After I finished all that I decided to play all the way through with my guitar and play along with the backing drum and bass and keyboard tracks that I worked out and I sang...
After I finished and as I was playing it I got tears in my eyes. The song is pretty intense and I'm kind of just going to work on it as much as I can to get it all posted up. I can't wait for everyone to hear this song. It's a pretty great song and I think that in general it will go over well. I plan to record it and get that all done before I play it live at an open mic. That way if everyone likes it a TON I can tell them that they can DL the mp3. 🙂
It's funny how... I'll have all these songs written and kinda sorta record them and kinda sorta be not sure what to do with them... and kinda sorta take forever to work on them... and then I write a song in like a few hours, or a few days, or a few weeks... and bam... it just catches my attention and then I work on it feverishly to try and get it completed as quickly as possible.
This is one of those songs.
The song is written to in some way shape or form be used to help raise money for the wish upon a hero organization. I think what I'm going to do is post it on iTunes and then donate the proceeds to either help grant wishes... or to help raise money for the organization... not sure. But anywho you can check em out here:
Woooo music and creativeness... so that was my day. Also I went for a run. And I also made pasta for dinner. Yum. I also did laundry. In case anyone was wondering about if I'd done my laundry or not for the week. I mean I know that's things that people like to know! Sooo I'm just keeping ya in the know and all that... about the laundry situation. Now if you ask me if it's put away...
well...
that's a different story. Let's just say... it's a work in progress.
Dear 1 and 1 blog reader
You... yea... you... Miss Maye.
Ok... this is so hard to say... but... here goes...
I'm so super super SUPER sorry about any anxiety or stress that I caused you in the past few months... and... it was just hard for me... to have you out of my life because I fell so hard and so quick for you. You're just funny and cute and smart and witty and talented and creative and seriously you are a catch! You are just... awesome... and any guy on the planet would be lucky to have you. Soooo very very very lucky.
you ignite a flame that makes me feel alive like no one else I've ever met. You've changed my whole freakin world and view on life... I mean... you don't know it... but... thank you... I mean I can't thank you enough for so many things that you've changed in me for the better... I've never had anyone in my whole life have such a positive influence on me.
There's just so much that you've changed in my life. And... it's positive... you are just an amazing person. And I MISS the heck out of you more than anything in the world. I think about you... like ALLLLL THE TIME... but... I know it's time to move on... it's just that...
Every time I see a hit from 1 and 1 on google analytics it gives me some small glimmer of hope... it makes me think that something could possibly happen... that maybe things could change and you might talk to me again or want to see me again or want to go do karaoke with me one time...
...and...
I need to realize...
...that's not going to happen... is it?
I know I just need to move on... but I can't if I still think you care... if I still think you miss me... to me in my head if you are still reading my blog and I'm still seeing hits on google analytics from you then it means that you have at least some interest. And I can't move on...
So... as difficult as it is to ask this...
I don't want to see anymore hits from 1 and 1... I mean, I do.... but... It's making me still want you... if I know you read my stuff... because then I think you might still want me...
so...
So please... I'm begging you. Just stop reading my blog... at least stop checking it at work... just....
I think part of what happened, I think I get now is that you are reading to make sure I'm not writing about you and that I'm moving on... but to me I think you are reading because you miss me... I guess maybe I finally figured out that it was confusion... and misunderstanding on my part as to why you were reading what I was writing...
So I don't know... is that right?
Because if I think you are reading my blog because you miss me then I miss you more... And if you don't miss me... then... I don't want to miss you anymore. 🙁
I'm glad that I met you and you've been such a positive influence in my life and ...
I seriously just... I love you. there... It's true. I do... but...
please? I'm asking you to just... help me move on... so no more 1 and 1 visits... anymore deal? oh gosh... that's so hard for me to say. 🙁
Goodbye... and I hope you continue to influence so many other people so positively the way you have me...
you're a good soul... through and through... you are such a good person. I'll always miss you but...
I need to let you go. I just need to. okay?
Please.
So... goodbye.